Sunday, May 06, 2007
I'm very frustrated with my sparing. Saturday trainings seem short even at 3 hours. Bowled 3 crappy games yesterday. Spare test wasnt that great either; we didnt have time to finish plus I couldnt bloody spare pin 2 properly ugh. How stupendifying. Nationals are in 10 days! Need to train more spares!!!
Yesterday while bowling I had a thought. I dunno if any senior realised this but it's one of the last few trainings we're gna have as a team. At least with us seniors around. I just cant believe it's.. here. ): ): ): This is happening way too fast ): I'll miss training with the juniors and the rest of the J2s, with Uncle Adam, Helmi, etc. More time for studies, for the class, but I feel like a big important chunk of me is gna be plucked out from me ): Alright this is too forward thinking already. Hah. There's still Nationals to go. (:
Just yesterday, my tutor called. Kinda to check up on how Glenn, Yewliang & I are doing with Math. I reluctantly picked up the phone call. I felt angry, upset, disappointed and defensive. He asked if we've found another tutor but I said we didnt - we'll look for another one after our season, which is end of May. He then went on to say that we cannot do that, we gotta be consistent, said we cannot keep focusing on bowling. The concoction of feelings stirred up even further and I couldnt help but pointed out that it will only be a few more weeks and bowling is our top priority now because season is here and this is probably the last year of our bowling career so we'd wna give our best. Just for May. Clearly, he didnt understood that. The mixed feelings aside, I appreciated his concern for us. But still. I simply cannot understand how he could drop Yewliang & Glenn for Physics & considered to take them back. And how he could just suddenly turn back on his very word and drop us for Math when he said countless times that he wouldnt drop us after BT1. But whatever. After he said he's quitting, I realised I'd prolly be better off without 5 hours of Math tuition each week at one sitting. If I could benefit from 2 and a half hours at one sitting twice for each week during O Levels, I dont think I cant for A's. Of course, we all know that A Levels require an "ocean" times more efforts than O's, but 5-8 hours of tuition in ONE single sitting is draining. Plus I think I may need a change in teaching style anyways. How I wish Mr Ng, my A Math tutor, teaches A Level Math ): Glenn & Yewliang are really nice guys. They take it in stride. They took the initial shock of being dropped for Physics quite calmly. No questions asked, they just went on to another Physics tutor. On the other hand, I'm so much more critical. I'm kinda embarrassed by this fact actually. But I just simply am unhappy about what our ex-tutor is doing. Guess girls feel more. Hah.
One step at a time.
Yesterday while bowling I had a thought. I dunno if any senior realised this but it's one of the last few trainings we're gna have as a team. At least with us seniors around. I just cant believe it's.. here. ): ): ): This is happening way too fast ): I'll miss training with the juniors and the rest of the J2s, with Uncle Adam, Helmi, etc. More time for studies, for the class, but I feel like a big important chunk of me is gna be plucked out from me ): Alright this is too forward thinking already. Hah. There's still Nationals to go. (:
Just yesterday, my tutor called. Kinda to check up on how Glenn, Yewliang & I are doing with Math. I reluctantly picked up the phone call. I felt angry, upset, disappointed and defensive. He asked if we've found another tutor but I said we didnt - we'll look for another one after our season, which is end of May. He then went on to say that we cannot do that, we gotta be consistent, said we cannot keep focusing on bowling. The concoction of feelings stirred up even further and I couldnt help but pointed out that it will only be a few more weeks and bowling is our top priority now because season is here and this is probably the last year of our bowling career so we'd wna give our best. Just for May. Clearly, he didnt understood that. The mixed feelings aside, I appreciated his concern for us. But still. I simply cannot understand how he could drop Yewliang & Glenn for Physics & considered to take them back. And how he could just suddenly turn back on his very word and drop us for Math when he said countless times that he wouldnt drop us after BT1. But whatever. After he said he's quitting, I realised I'd prolly be better off without 5 hours of Math tuition each week at one sitting. If I could benefit from 2 and a half hours at one sitting twice for each week during O Levels, I dont think I cant for A's. Of course, we all know that A Levels require an "ocean" times more efforts than O's, but 5-8 hours of tuition in ONE single sitting is draining. Plus I think I may need a change in teaching style anyways. How I wish Mr Ng, my A Math tutor, teaches A Level Math ): Glenn & Yewliang are really nice guys. They take it in stride. They took the initial shock of being dropped for Physics quite calmly. No questions asked, they just went on to another Physics tutor. On the other hand, I'm so much more critical. I'm kinda embarrassed by this fact actually. But I just simply am unhappy about what our ex-tutor is doing. Guess girls feel more. Hah.
One step at a time.
♥ Zen @ 11:20 AM.
